It's been a rough 72 hrs. Probably the roughest 72 hrs I've experienced in my entire life. Ever have a really good dream where everything is going just perfect and you're about to reach that happy ending, then you wake up? Like someone pulled the rug out from underneath you. That's what it felt like when it initially happened.

I want to call her and try and understand a little more about why she made the decision she made but I'm afraid the more I know, the more hurt I'll be. For years I questioned whether she was strong enough to handle this relationship and for years she's been the pillar of strength and faith for us. Long distance relationships never work, and we both knew this. But we took the chance because we thought we were soulmates. We thought love like this could span any distance. How completely naive of us.

She was always reassuring me and always standing tall through all our obstacles. So as the years went by, my faith in the relationship grew. My expectations for us grew. Nothing would stand in our way. Then one day it all changed. How does it all fall apart in a heartbeat? I sit and think of the reason she gave me and it really doesn't feel right. There's something missing. And as I sit and think out all the possibilities, I don't know what would be worse, whether she found another person, whether she just fell out of love with me, or a combination of both.

So where do I go from here? Do I move on? Do I sit and ponder why? What did I do wrong? Can we still be friends after all the resentment and bitterness? I need some answers. Someone, anyone.